But as much as lack of technological savvy-ness has hampered my on-line development, something else has held me back much, much more.
How do you proudly present your various accomplishments without coming across as totally full of yourself? Don’t get me wrong. Having waited until my mid-twenties to consider the fact that I could, in fact, call myself an artist, I am fully aware of the narcissism involved in it. I may be far more vain than I want to be, but I don’t want to come across as so, (perhaps out of vanity!)
Learning to quietly gain the confidence to self-promote just enough to maintain and sustain the various projects I have on the go, has been extremely tricky spiritual business. Step by step, it seems to be parallel to the journey toward confidence in the projects themselves. The writing, the singing, and, sure, probably like anybody, the question, “am I beautiful?” crosses my mind automatically when people send me photos from shows. The question, "am I nice?" and "am I good?" persist as well. I got good days and bad days, probably like anybody.
So here I am: a writer by dint of the fact that I write, a singer by dint of the fact that I sing, in photos by dint of the fact that people take photos.
You be the judge of the value therein. Feel free to waver in moods. I always do.
Thank you for reading,
Orit